MARTIN

Martín is 13 years old, and during art class, he came to tell me that he was in love. His eyes were shining and he was smiling with a certain picaresque light, so I was excited to listen to him, and I also felt a “deja vú” with my own stories. He first made it clear to me that he trusted me, so he believed that his secret would be safe with me. I nodded my head, as he leaned over to accommodate a chair next to mine. All his classmates were doing theirs activities, while Martín told me: "It's Sebastian!". Sebastián, his classmate who bothers him the most, but, Martin is telling me about it because Sebastian had not come to school that day.

I was silent as if waiting for confirmation and the next thing I heard was: “I really like him! And the truth is, it makes me sad when he doesn't come to class ”. I just wanted in my head not to throw any sign of judgment out of my mouth or out of my bodily expressions, although I was afraid I might somehow. Chévre! It was the most unexpected thing that occurred to me. However, I remembered that at times Sebastián has been cruel to Martín, making fun of him, giving him little tolerable nicknames and we have even had to intervene several teachers to prevent Sebastián from taking advantage of Martín. Now we really are carried away, I thought for a moment.

My mom already knows, he told me with a higher degree of enthusiasm. She knows what? I asked to clarify myself. Well, I'm gay. What did she say? that I didn't cry anymore, that she supports me because maybe it is a very difficult world, but that she would be with me. Also, she said that I will not in a hurry, that first I realized if I liked the girls, that I looked at their "puchequitas", that I would touch it them to see if it passed me, but that if it did not pass me, it doesn't matter, that she supports me . And the truth, teacher, my friends let me touch it them but I don't feel anything. And also, my mother said that she was going to take me to the psychologist, because I may be confused and suddenly someone else knows how to talk to me to see what I want. And do you know what you want? ask him. Yes teacher, Sebastian, and well, to be gay. And what is it to you to be gay? Well, he likes boys and not girls.

Well, and do you know if Sebastián likes you? Or does he correspond to you? I kept asking with a certain fear of being wrong in my questions. Well, yes, he said me, I told him one day and he told me: "look at this fag with what he comes up with." And how did you feel? Well, that's how they sometimes call gays, fags.

The doorbell rings!

The conversation continues!

Wilson Mape Vanegas

Psychologist